the paint n painting..

at times being juz a paint is a relaxing, happy-go-lucky process in which v actually depend on the brush, the pastels, the paper, n most of the techniques to create the painting....

it is used only when needed or when we are attracted towards it and at certain conditions, it actually acts as a substitute...however the feeling or sense o being in such a "used" state can b intimidating or even discriminating as well as unfairness..but the fact is, it actually puts these paints out of thoughts, opinions and even assumptions.


the irony here is that a painter actually depends on the pastels, brushes and most of the time the paint itself as in the array of colours. however in such circumstances, when the irony itself acts as general statement, unsupported and unbacked-up, ppl fund these normal...

i wonder, when these ingredients actually r the main essences of creating a master piece, hw come n why do they actually act in a "calm" n not feeling the sense or the urge to actually be a part of the master piece leaving the entire headache to the painter itself. it was created for a purpose....
the brushes to spread the colours..
the paper being the foundation to every master piece....
the pastels being the vibrant essences..
the pastes being the added ingredient....
the techniques used as d X-factor of a particular idea....

n of so much they could offer, why juz act as it is...

the brush as the brush
the paper as the paper
the pastel as the pastel
the paste as the paste
the technique as the technique

i wonder~
i ask...is it a sense of dependency or mayb the feeling of being put aside or perhaps the idea of fear being not accepted due to factors of immaturity or 
inferiority?
i wonder~


tho it will actually be an advantage n as a stepping stone to the painter of distributing ideas, perceptions n tasks as in telling the brushes wat to paint n where to paint, telling the paints wat type muz b used n when.....at tims, being a painter tires u.....

it annoys u of being the sole-thinker
it irritates u of being a "whole-dictator"
it dissapoints u of being hu u r n wat u cud bcum of when everything is one..


still, this is juz the ideology n living fact of hw today's ingredients could actually be.....

dependency and selfishness~

solemn, deep thinking~~~