the fruit to choose

a friend is need is a friend in deed. what crosses you each time you see a person whom you know very well. a person whom you understand well enough, well enough to say at least. a person whom you realise that he or she will be there for you when you need him or her~

however sometimes we wonder..
how come we don't really know the particular person?
how come we fail to understand the person well enough, even as well as to talk about him/her?
how come we do not see him/her when we need them?

and so, as questions fill us, who is it to be blamed?

is it us who failed to ask more about that person?
is it us who was over confident with that relationship knowing that we know enough?
is it us who actually lost in the battle to keep up the relationship?

now and then, we see groups of people hanging out at the bowling alleys, grooving at the pubs, laughing over starbucks, screaming at karaoke sessions, and sharpening the wooden sticks (don't know what is it called) at snooker centers. we see them and what do we perceive?

FRIENDS

a friend once said "i don't believe in friendship"
"they never last"
"they share your laughter"
"but only to leave when the joke's over"

how come this happens when these people are actually called friends? what value does the word has? has the word dropped to such a level in which people sometimes laugh over the word and even mock about it. pessimistic you may say, but to one extend, i believe that that very friend of mine knows best. why laugh when you only know how to run? why joke when you do not laugh forever? why share secrets when you don't even intend to respect them?

the word has so much been humiliated. poor thing to the creator of these words! it is sad to get to know that the person you once trust was the person whom broke the trust. it is painful to get to know that your backstabber is the person you never will back stab. it is even more hurtful to get to know that that person is embarrassed with all that you both went through. 

but getting back to the point, the question that hunts us; "why?" we can only assume and draw conclusions to our own justification. the probability of getting to know the reason would somehow draw different drawbacks. at the end of the day, it us whom we  ourselves can blame.

"maybe it is me who thought i knew all about the person"
"maybe it is me who chose the wrong person to be linked"

"maybe it is me who always wanted more, not knowing the boundaries and limits to it"

we can only assume.

we can only suggest.

we can only think.

but we can never decide which is which.

to everyone out there, picking a friend is like picking a fruit. you see whether the fruit is ripe, similarly you see whether the person is comfortable with you. you feel the outer texture of the fruit to see whether it is soft or hard or just nice, similarly you see whether the person  fits you in most aspects you look into.you weigh the fruit in one hand to see whether is it ready to be eaten, similarly you see a person whether he or she understands and respects and after all that evaluation, you buy the fruit, similarly  you pick the person to be your friend.