sitting back in the present glancing into the past...

being here in a whole new place, i see a lot of things. making new friends and joking with them was what i usually do. strutting and fretting my days upon the hours of my everyday life has become a norm to me. but at one time, at one moment, at that very second, i recall of my past. i re-image of my memories of being in a school that has never brought me fear nor discomfort. slowly through the window, i see what i once was and i wonder what i would be become of then.


1. the karaoke session we had in ts. screaming and shouting and yelling through the not-so-good mike. back then it was me, jin, kok weng, najwa, ash, izaty, alif, zhafran,rahim, firdaus n faiz.....we came about songs that actualy some of them touched me leaving me behind the idea of what a true friendship could actually mean. Aerosmith's I don't wanna miss a thing and Samson's Kenangan Terindah were the two melodies of once in a life time that i would actually hear. in fact it would be the first and the last i could actually. nevertheless i hope it would not end! 


2. the library of sgi. being the president, brought me to a new level in life. the jokes that i made with them. always calling wan chuin n bee theng to clean the library, the tricks i taught my juniors. teaching joshua loke on how to clean the books during kebersihan. the rules that i did not actually practised leaving my juniors out of hand but under my eyes. junn lim, chung, mien yuen, han seong, n those fellas used to mingle in the office library, in the counters..the meetings i keep n me being the only voice heard across the four walls. those times were truly a treasure of a life time and it would be a moment of love, friendship, love, compassion and laughter.


3. the cinemas, the cafes, n the lakes. now and then, having a car and motor license granted me the advantage of zooming here and there with a myvi n c70. the gate was a popular spot. i brought many new comers like junn lim, chung, mien yuen n nicholas.....i introduced to my great bm teacher, pn zura n my fellow malay debate mates...my besties n those people always in mind and in heart; kalai, shariza, wy, azim and countless more..the panorama, the place for the best ice cream in town..the largest ie cream v had but wasted..me, junn lim, chung and nicholas were so full that we left almost 3/4 of it there..lucky for them, i had the bill settled. the movies that we went together.....the jokes and laughter in the cinemas with dinesh, sharizal, kalai, yen, azim, wy, junn lim, jin, nicholas, chung, mien yuen, zhafran, kok weng, alif, izaty, najwa n those beautiful-hearted people.....the lake gardens, where me kalai, sharizal and wy had our fashion photoshoot...bearing in mind that it was like 2am!! v did crazy stuffs, walking to buy burgers at a nearby stall, and snapping pictures all the way round. indeed it was a true moment of enjoyment and bonding.


4. classes and school and projects....lazying around in class in my last years were full time job..the battle between izaty and ash over me never leaves my head...the scandals spread of me and jin was fun!          
the mouth war with xian yung...the high pitched laughs...fooling around with fathil, arvind, roshan, and dinesh made my schooling days a whole lot fun...the bendera n posters i used to help y arts teacher complete for sports day...the times of me being a referee for basketball during PJ's...emcee-ing the installation night of the interact club.....organizing, performing and decorating in a concert that turned out to be the most succesful concerts ever held in the history of sgi as said by the teachers.....battling over miss 3Y made me think that some how or rather in life, nothing leaves us smooth through out the journey....and those were the few moments of my life that changed the self that i am now, that matured me in all ways that brought me close to what we perceive as a person...to what i call someone beautiful and someone who lives a life!

back to where i am now, i always wondered maybe one day i could actually go through all them repeatedly. like a video tape, i will never dispose nor even put them aside. to the god i pray, to the angels who watch over me, hear me say;

"may what i have went through never be the same in my days to come, may my days to come be better than my yesterdays, may my yesterdays be an everlasting-non-fading jewel, may my tomorrows always be a surprise of wonderful things.




*susu is now going to continue completing his assignment feeling a whole lot much better to let go off such thoughts in mind*

sealed lips now with a slit!!!

the day was beautifully fine. everything was jus so fine. in the morning, no lecturer!! yay! mr mohana called n said he had observation in school n couldnt attend, so we were like..ARGHHHH 

so everyone was like laughin n foolin around~ ^^ wakakakaakaka.......making fun of our NUN n fellow mates were my normal routine..hey! its not tht i mock them or wat, bt it is u noe a way of talking, n everyon is comfortable wit it, infact those hu gets it frm me do laugh about it to..so wats d big deal..i mean life is suppose to be about tht ryte?

anyway, lets go on...so we were in class..n the lecturer was AGAIN late....hehe..well..i guess this is kinda normal~ lol! ^^ so as usual la..perangai budak2!! 

* CAKAP CAKAP CAKAP CAKAP CAKAP!!!!!!*

out of the blue, SUMONE said this...

"kajian saintifik mengatakan sekiranya tangan kita lebih besar daripada muka kita, kemungkinan besar kita akan mendapat barah"

n i was so into it, n was like..
"yeker?"

n so this PERSON told me to try la....(mind you, u may noe wat mite happen next, but i mmg dunt noe!!)

so aku pun letak tangan aku kat muka aku....n as i was like tryin to  weather is my hand really bigger than my face......

*bamm!*

THAT IDIOT HIT ME ON THE FACE WIT MY HAND ON MY FACE!!! I WAS LIKE SO SHOCKED N COULDNT SAY A WORD...I JUZ DIN EXPECT A PERSON LIKE THA COULD ACTUALLY DO THAT.......A JOKE IS A JOKE...BUT U HAV UR LIMITS.....I DO JOKE WIT EVERYONE BUT MIND YOU I HAVE NEVER TOUCHED ANYONE CAUSING PAIN!! I JUZ GOT REALLY IRRITATED AND ANNOYED!

back then i did nt notice wat was happening on my lips..so i was ok  ok la~ ^^ so i int talk to tht person...din rely his "hye suresh"...din do anything to him..i juz kept quiet.....wats d point raising my voice or fighting? fightings r juz for uncivilized beings! so i chose to walk away....so as classes ended i went to the toilet...n there i saw him again...god me!!!! "hye suresh" ....SILENCE....when i was done...while washing my hands~ i looked at the mirror.....

THERE IT WAS!!!! A SMALL CUT IN THE CENTER OF MY LOWER LIPS! GOD! I GOT EVEN MORE FURIOUS!!!!!!!! 

U MADE A WOUND N MY LIPS N YOU'RE JUZ ACTING "HYE SURESH" WITHOUT EVEN A SIMPLE APOLOGY?!!!

OK FINE...u'll tink this much fuss for a sall cut? wel let me tell you something....everything comes in a limit..n when tht line is crossed no matter how cool you can be, being furious and unsatisfied is wat sumone wud usually feel n behave.......nevertheless, as i dunt engage in fights  or wat....so thts it....

NOT A SINGLE WORD IS GOING TO BE SAID TO HIM! AT LEAST UNTIL MY LIPS HEAL.....



CALL ME SENSITIVE OR ANYTIN, I DUNT MIND, COZ ITS ME TASTING BLOOD, ITS ME FEEING THE NUMBNESS ON MY LIPS N ITS ME GOING THRU IT.....

~aku sensitif ?~

^.^

=.=

ishk!!!

in approximately 1 hour 57minutes, our current supply will  b out till the next day at 7am!!!!!!!! duno for wat reason!!!!!!!




* brought to you by susu for STUPIDTV.COM at 9.03pm*
 

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I'M CRAZIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The Story of The Pencil

i started reading this book here in this college....surprisingly i TOOK like omg!!er almost 2 weeks!!! to finish a 245-paged book..hehe..erm...well, i realy wanted to read smtg to burn time..u noe la....hehe..when ure broke, u juz HAV to sit in the hostel nt moving around..wakakakakaka...! so as i was reading i found this story tht really attrated me n i really luved the way it was told! ^^ so here, i let u hav a picture of hw i actually felt when i  read the story~ ^^

tht was the book~ ^^ by Paulo Coelho~ ^^ a Brazilian author! ^^
n here is one of his writings....

The Story of The Pencil

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point, he asked, "are you writing a story about what we've done? is it a story about me?". His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson, "I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I'm using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up". Intrigue, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn't seem very special. "But it's just like any other pencil I've ever seen!" Smilingly, his grandmother replied, "That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on to them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world" She continued,

"First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will."

"Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpener. That makes the pencil suffer a little but afterwards, he's much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because thy will  make you a better person."

"Third quality: the pencil always allow us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing. It helps to keep us on the road to justice"

"Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So, always pay attention to what is happening inside you."

"Finally, the pencil's fifth quality: It always leaves a mark. In just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will always leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action."

**this beautiful tale is dedicated to everyone out there hu sees life useless, a failure, problematic, n feels that every problem n conflicts always mingle around them.....

but most of all, i specially dedicate this piece of art to the following people based on wat v hav shared! ^^

1) the laughing penang "FRENCH FRIES"

2) the taiping assistant creative director!